Bonne Nouvelle Année!

Bucketlist: Celebrate New Year's Eve in Times Square, New York.

It was impossible to take a picture of the ball drop and everything, since I could barely breathe. I mental pictured everything that happened that night. The crowd, fireworks, Times Square, road blocks, BALL DROP, I could feel the New Year spirit. New York City. It was a moment for me. I've dreamed to celebrate New Year's Eve in New York ever since I was 14 and it happened. It came true! Well, it's still far from what I dreamed, but the fact that I was in New York, it just brought up every New York fantasy I have and in result, inspired me to focus, to stay on track of what I want. 2014 is definitely going to be my year. I can feel it.

Op-Ed Columnist for The New York Times/Culture and Life & Love News Journalist for ELLE/Love & Relationship Editor for Cosmopolitan/Film Critic for Entertainment Weekly/Music Writer for Rolling Stone and one the Empire Hotel-ish condominium in Upper East Side. I'm a Blair Waldorf - minus the schemes and Chuck Bass.

I know what I want is a long shot. Well, it's everybody's dream. I had that "too ugly for LA, too dumb for NY" moments, but screw them. People are going to talk anyway. If you're doing great, they will try to bring you down. If you're not doing great, they will still try to drag you down to hell with them. It's just what people do. It's how they make themselves feel better. Whatever happens, life still goes on and I've come too far to not do what I want to do, so I might as well try as hard as I can to have all the things I want in life. If I get them, it's awesome. If not then at least I know that's because I'm not good enough, not because I'm not trying.

Happy New Year! May 2014 bring the best in everybody :)


Cheers,
T.

Âme Soeur

Soul mate. Two separate words. Take a lifetime to find.

As much as it sounds ridiculous, naive, stupid, impossible - whatever you want to add, I believe soul mates do exist. I believe God created humans in pairs and everybody has their own partner in life. I believe nobody in this world deserves to be alone and lonely no matter how cruel and mean they are to others. I know karma's a bitch, life's a bitch, but it has nothing to do with anyone being alone unloved for the rest of their lives.

I once thought, "what if someone's soul mate was tragically murdered or died in a stupid accident before meeting the other one, does that mean the other person will live forever alone?"

My mom told me it would never happen. She believes God must have prepared everything. And my dad, I couldn't ask him that kind of question. He would blow up either into tears or anger if I did. My dad believes God is good. I didn't, and don't, want to change his believes. I respect him that way. So I went for the sources that I could trust and rely on: movies.

I learned many things from movies. I believe I become who I am today because of the movies I watch. Thanks to Grey's Anatomy, I realized there must be some kind of a soul mate system that God had created way way before even Dinosaurs existed. I believe there must be more than one soul mate for a person. Maybe two or three, but each of us is only destined to meet one. And the back up soulmates, those are the ones who died before meeting their other half. I mean, God must have made backups for us just in case. I don't know if that's even true, but God is perfect and that's the only thing that makes sense.

To describe in in one sentence, I believe soul mate is the other half of you who mends your broken heart, your broken self, by giving you their everything.

I believe one day I'm going to meet that person, that someone. Someone familiar, someone that when I’m trying to get to know, it feels like remembering who I am. And when I'm with that someone, it's not going to be like any other. It's going to be amazing and feel amazing and right and consuming and crazy. There won't be settling down or degrading standard. He won't care about my insecurities or about the other beautiful girls out there because I'm his and I'm the only one who stands out. He will be jealous of things but he won't be overprotective because he knows that's not how to keep me. He will encourage me to do the things I'm too afraid to do and I will get a chance to do those things because he can convince me that he will still be there loving me with all his heart no matter what happen. He won't give up on me because he loves me. It's going to be perfect and my soul will go "oh, there you are. I've been looking for you," and I know it in my soul that there is going to be a whole new amazing adventure. I can't wait until how every smile gives me peace of mind, how my heart skips a beat every time those beautiful eyes stare into mine, and how every waking moment together brings me closer to the impossible conclusion that you’re me, that I have to have you and it's impossible not to love you.

Well, yeah, I'm a hopeless romantic.

Can't wait to see you,
T.

Bonjour!

Hi!

This is actually my old blog. I created this when I was in High School but then forgot the password and forgot I even have this. But I finally remember, so I decided to delete all of the posts and re-do the whole thing. Hope I won't forget about it anytime soon.

Welcome to my blog! Message me, or not, whatever.


T.